Feeling Better
Today feels like the first day of Autumn - a week early, but I don’t mind. I’m looking forward to a crisp new season and (I’m determined) a renewed outlook. I have much to look forward to, despite my recent negativity. The UK economy is supposedly entering recovery, and I have a few promising job descriptions to mold myself into. With that hope comes the potential that Geoff and I may have a place of our own soon. I enjoy everything about Autumn and the Winter months - browns, oranges, yellows, Halloween, leaf crunching, chilly days, conkers, Thanksgiving, Guy Fawkes, snow, bitter winds and of course Christmas (for which I love breaking my budget on gifts). Not long after the holidays, Geoff and I will both have our birthdays as well as our first year wedding anniversary. And the drop in temperatures means I shouldn’t have to worry about how ridiculous I look in long sleeves for at least the next 7 months.
Right now, I’m listening to Owl City and planning the final details for a 3 day trip to Paris tomorrow. Yes, I have a lot to be grateful for, and it’s time I try harder to match my mood more closely with my situation. I never meant to express ingratitude, but I know that is what my negativity translated into. Many things are out of my control and uncertain right now, but I still have some power to influence my situation. I will love Paris, and I will love the days after. Hopefully the rest of life’s details will fall into place when I can see through the clouds of depression a little more clearly.
