I keep thinking about what Geoff told me earlier… Yeah we’re all unhappy.
Are we? It never occurred to me before that everyone may be as unhappy as I am, as much as I am. Am I being self-centered or fatalistic with that notion? Or perhaps I am rectifying another faulty thought by considering that I am no more unhappy than anyone else. I can even handle that idea and give it full consideration.
But then I must pair it with the second part of his assertion…we just get on with normal life. I can’t imagine a world of people as unhappy as I am, as much as I am, just getting on with life as usual. If I accept that idea, then I have to accept yet another character flaw as my own. Not only am I perpetually miserable, but unlike most everyone else, I lack the will or strength to overcome my self-indulgence and ignore my misery for the sake of normality and responsibility.
Now I feel even more miserable.
